In the 1920s, in Bruges, Brussels,
Gabrielle Van der Mal is preparing to be a nun. She leaves
behind her worldly goods, but decides to keep a pen given to her by
her widowed father, a renowned physician. After bidding
farewell to her sisters and brother, Gaby walks with her father to
the convent. Dr. Van der Mal doubts that Gaby is meant to be a
nun, saying that he can see her chaste and poor, but never obedient.
After reminding her that the Order forbids her to ask for her most
heartfelt desire, which is to be assigned to the Congo as a nurse,
he tells her not to believe she has failed if she is ill-suited to
convent life. Feeling certain of her vocation, Gaby serenely
dismisses his misgivings.
At the convent, her father points out a
nun who is considered a "Living Rule," because she personifies the
rules of the Order by her exemplary behavior. After presenting
Gaby’s dowry to the Order, Dr. Van der Mal tells his daughter to be
happy and leaves. Gaby is disappointed to learn that she is
forbidden to talk to her mentor, the nurse Sister William, for many
months. Following strict rules, the postulants adapt to the
sound of the bells, which call them to awaken, to chapel, to meals
and to the Grand Silence, which are the hours the nuns are forbidden
to talk. To develop their spiritual life, the postulants may
not ask for anything on their own behalf and are strenuously tested
to root out their faults. Mother Emmanuel tells them that the
self-sacrificing life of a nun is a life against nature.
On their Day of Vesture, when they are
given new names and the novice’s habit, the young women are expected
to turn from memories of their past, requiring that Gaby give up the
pen from her father. Henceforth, she is known as Sister Luke.
After the ceremony, Gaby blushes when her hospital patients tell her
she is "a beautiful nun," and thus commits the sin of pride.
By discussing her discomfort with a fellow novice, she breaks the
rule of silence. New tests and penances are introduced to the
novices and, once a week, they are expected to announce publicly
their own faults, as well as those of others they have witnessed.
Although she tries to obey, Gaby frequently breaks rules and, even
when she succeeds in following the rules, feels she is sinning by
taking pride in her success.
After taking her vows, Gaby is sent to
the School of Tropical Medicine in Antwerp. Having already
been trained by her father, Gaby does well, but incites the jealousy
of an older nun, who reports to Mother Marcella that Gaby is guilty
of pride. Marcella suggests to Gaby that she fail her
examinations to prove her humility, but soul-searching prevents Gaby
from doing so. Afterward, instead of sending Gaby to the
Congo, Marcella assigns her to work in a mental sanitarium.
There, a dangerous schizophrenic patient nicknamed Archangel tricks
Gaby into unlocking her cell without asking for assistance.
After Archangel attacks her, the shamed Gaby chides herself for her
prideful belief that she could handle the situation alone and
confides to the sanitarium’s Mother Superior of her internal
struggle with obedience. The nun, believing Marcella was wrong
to ask Gaby to fail intentionally, suggests that she be easier on
herself.
After three years, Gaby takes final
vows, as her family watches the ceremony. Although she is
assigned to the Congo, Gaby is disappointed to learn that she will
not work with the natives, but at the "white" hospital for Europeans
under the supervision of the eccentric Dr. Fortunati, a bachelor and
atheist described as a "genius and devil" by the nuns. The
shrewd and demanding Fortunati is pleased with Gaby’s
professionalism, but discerns her exhausting inner struggle.
Gaby works long hours and institutes useful innovations, only to be
accused by the bishop of "singularizing" herself when her successes
draw attention. When a beloved priest has an accident possibly
requiring amputation and there are no doctors available to treat
him, Gaby saves the priest and his leg, garnering praise from
Fortunati, who then jokes that she will have to confess her "sin of
pride." Later, with Fortunati, Gaby visits a leper colony
served by a priest, who has dedicated himself to the lepers as a
penance for past sins and is now infected himself.
Back at the hospital, Gaby's nursing
duties conflict with her religious obligations. Although her
obligations to her religious life are supposed to take precedence,
Gaby cannot sacrifice her patients’ psychological needs to the Grand
Silence. As Fortunati feared, Gaby’s tension from her inner
struggles combined with long hours of work take their toll and she
contracts tuberculosis, a disease for which she would be required to
leave the Congo. Having worked with many nursing nuns,
Fortunati tells Gaby that she is a "worldly nun," who is good for
patients, but who cannot conform to the convent’s expectations.
"That’s your illness," he says, "the TB is a byproduct." After
he wryly warns her not to let the sin of pride make her confess that
she correctly diagnosed her illness, he promises to cure the
"byproduct" and explain it to the Mother Superior in a way that
allows Gaby to remain.
He prescribes several months of rest in
isolation, where Gaby is pampered with wine and a special diet, and
given a pet monkey. As she recuperates, she is at peace with
herself and jokes to a fellow nun that she may never again break a
rule. Wryly, the nun tells her they are talking during Grand
Silence. After she returns to duty, a native man, swayed by a
witch doctor’s superstitions, kills a kindly nun who hoped to
convince unconverted natives to attend Christmas Eve service.
Illunga, a native who assists the nuns, confides to Gaby his
surprise that the nuns are not angry. After Gaby explains the
nuns’ belief in forgiveness, Illunga and others come to the service.
When a nurse is needed to accompany an important mental patient to
Belgium, Gaby is the only person suitably trained. She
fervently hopes that she will be allowed to return, but the Mother
Superior decides to keep her there as "a good example" to the other
nuns while she renews her spiritual life.
From her father, who continues to worry
that her life is being misspent, Gaby learns that her brother and
two brothers-in-law are in the army. After Fortunati writes
that her replacement "is a real nun," the Mother Superior asks Gaby
if she was in love with the doctor, but Gaby denies it.
Although she prays for detachment from her memories, Gaby remembers Fortunati’s prediction that she would be unhappy at the motherhouse.
The outbreak of World War II makes
Gaby’s return to the Congo impossible. German bombing is
followed by the German occupation of Belgium, but the nuns are
expected to feel charity toward their enemy. In the local
hospital where she is assigned, Gaby observes that a young nurse,
the novice Lisa, is helping the Underground Resistance. After
asking God to forgive her disobedience, Gaby offers her help.
Upon learning that her father has been killed, Gaby wrestles with
her conscience, finally acknowledging that she is "filled with
hate." Believing that she should no longer be a nun, Gaby asks
for permission to leave the convent. When permission is
denied, she threatens to leave without it. Lisa, who guesses
Gaby’s decision, gives her a contact in the Underground, so that she
has a place to go where her skills can be used. After
convincing her superiors to put through her paperwork, Gaby is
called in to sign the documents and her dowry is returned, but she
is refused a last blessing by the Mother Superior. Alone, she
is sent to a room, where she replaces her habit with civilian
clothes and takes off the wedding ring that symbolizes her marriage
to Christ. After exiting the convent, she walks away to a
different life.